I have come to the conclusion that I want and need a heart like Jesus because this thing I have in my chest is not working properly.

I do not truly love anyone, although at times I really would like to show love and compassion toward all people.

My heart and mind are full of unwanted and unnecessary junk, I am trying to replace that garbage in my life with something valuable from the bible. I read scriptures from the bible, but five minutes after I read the scriptures, I forgot what I read.

There is some Godly stuff in me that God installed in me before I was born, but I find myself fighting against that knowledge God instilled in me. Unless Jesus or someone show or tell me how to get a heart like Jesus, I am going to be in big trouble in the last few days.

And it is not like I want to be a low life; it is I just cannot help myself. I do think of decent stuff I could do for people and myself, but I very seldom ever get around to doing the things I should and need to do. When I get to heaven it will only be because of the grace of God because I did not contribute anything.

I see a lot of beauty in this world, some people may not be able to notice it, because they already have the holy spirit living in their lives, and their minds are on other decent things. But since Jesus showed me personally that I was indeed the lowest form of life on this earth, now everything God created is beautiful to me.

I may tell someone I am going to help them with a certain task, with good intentions, Then I go and forget about what I was supposed to do. When I see the people again, they look at me as if I am the biggest liar on the planet, and when I realized what I have done, I really feel sad and bad.

I still get angry when someone does or says something to me or about me that I do not like. I go around all angry and upset for about an hour, before I calm down, I can feel my blood pressure rising, I get upset and start sweating, this is only hurting me, so why am I still doing it?

Can you see the day when someone intentionally burns down your home with you and your family in the house, takes all of you and your family’s financial belongings? And you run out in the street after the assailants yelling at them that you still loved them and ask Jesus to forgive them for what they just did to you and your family. Now that would be a heart like Jesus.

Unfortunately, I and some other people do not have a heart like Jesus, but that will not keep us from trying to be more like Jesus with our frail hearts and minds. I do not know exactly what it takes to have a heart like Jesus, but I think it is going to be demanding.

It will not be so strenuous as much as it is going to be difficult to allow Jesus to change our hearts and minds. But that is what I think it is going to take for me to have a heart like Jesus. If you already have a heart like Jesus, then you are blessed, I wish I was in your shoes.

I heard a song title “A Heart Like Yours”, sung by CeCe Winans, that is where I got the idea for the title of this post.

by: Sandra M. | Photo: Pixabay