What really amazes me is the fact that God found favor in me again, well you are probably thinking, God, finds favor in everyone.
You are correct, but not everyone is the worst sinner on earth like I am. God showed me that I was the worst sinner on earth, I did not want to believe it at first, or why did he showed me that in the first place, but now I understand it.
The reason I am so happy that God found favor in me is that he did not have to like he would have to find favor in another human. For everyone else on earth, God will automatically find favor in you because of who you are and how you live.
God and I have a strange relationship now I would like for our relationship to be different, but I have learned to live with it. You see many years ago God sent the holy spirit to live in me, and I ask God to take the holy spirit away from me because I did not want the holy spirit living in me at that time, I simply did not know any better then.
In July 2020, after many years of my intentionally and willfully sinning, God came to me again. There were no whistleblowing, or a welcome back home son signs, this time God was very strict with me. I did not know the extent of the penalties I would have pay for my many sins.
I always thought if I asked Jesus to forgive my sins, he would forgive me, and that would be the end of it. Jesus recently told me that when he forgives a person for their sins, that simply means they may not have to die a spiritual death, and that is not guaranteed, but they still will have to give an account for their sins.
Let me put it this way, a police officer issue you a ticket for a traffic violation, there are legal ways for you to remove that violation from your driving record forever, but you still must pay the fine for that particular traffic violation, even though it will not be on your driving record anymore.
This post is to tell everyone that no matter what sins you may have committed, they can never be as bad as mine. And if God can help a worthless person like me, just imagine what he can do for a decent person like you.
When you are the worst sinner on earth, you really don’t expect any help from Jesus, as a matter of fact, I was afraid to ask him for help, so I just struggled around, burden with all of my sins on my back. I knew he would gladly help people like you, but I am very far from being like you.
If you knew my sinful past, you would be angrily thinking or saying how or why in the world, could or would God ever help a miserable person like that. This is the very reason why I say He found favor in me again. I can understand it very well if you feel that way because there are a lot of other decent good people out there that deserve his help a lot more than I ever could or would.
I am not happy about my past sinful life, but now I am very, very, very happy, and pleased that God showed me favor. Not so long ago I did not want God or anything Godly near me, but now you cannot drag me away from God, and he just let me sit here and soak up all of his love because he knows I am not going anywhere again ever. Come join me.
by: John N. | Photo: Needpix