You probably have heard or read the words “you should not commit this sin” referring to people like me, whether you are a believer or not.
The words you should not commit this sin have real meaning for believers, but if you are a nonbeliever like I was, you do not understand what those words mean, and you sure do not know the price you will have to pay for committing that sin or any sin.
Jesus approaches each individual differently, what I am writing about now is about me and not you. I met Jesus about eighteen months ago, it was not the kind of meeting I expected, I thought it would be the welcome home son kind of meeting I had heard about, but it was not. I detected a disappointed kind of feeling when Jesus and I became one, I am not sure if that disappointed kind of feeling originated from Jesus or me since we both shared the same feelings, and I was disappointed because I had never done anything good.
I do not know if other believers felt this same type of expression when they first met Jesus. I am OK with the type of friendship I have with Jesus; he has enlightened my life so much and he tells me a lot of stuff I did not know, some of the stuff he tells me I am not sure if I should know it.
I am not sure if other believers literally became one with Jesus when they first met, I am not sure if I was dead or not, but I was in spirit form, it was like we had the same lungs, heart, mind, etc. When you are without your body and in a spirit form you cannot physically see anyone, but you can feel all of their expressions, and emotions which is like physically seeing them.
While Jesus and I were literally one he searched my whole soul, he did not find anything good in me and he told me so. If those words had come from anyone other than Jesus, I would have ignored them. But those words came from Jesus directed straight at me, imagine how it feels when Jesus tells you there is nothing good in you. While Jesus was searching through my soul, I remember thinking I wished I had done at least one good thing in my life so I would have one good thing for him to find.
When I got to know Jesus a little better, I begin to understand him more, I ask him if I could become one of his followers, he said yes, but it was not going to be easy. After what I had gone through, I was willing to go through anything to be his follower. I came to realize what he meant when he said it was not going to be easy because for a new believer it can be difficult because I did not know how to prepare for Satan’s attacks on my mind.
Before I became a believer, I committed most of the sins other believers said I should not commit. I did not commit all those sins just because I did not have anything better to do. I committed those sins because as a nonbeliever I never had any idea, I would have to pay the cost for committing those sins.
I do not know if other believers have to give an account of the laws they disobeyed. If you are contemplating on becoming a believer do not let my situation discourage you, I may be the only believer who has to do that, it may be because of my many sins.
I asked and I am still asking Jesus to forgive my sins, and he did, and he is still forgiving my sins, but I still have to give an account for all of God and Jesus laws I disobeyed along the way. I do not know if Jesus requires other believers to give an account for the laws they disobeyed, from what I am hearing he does not.
I guess I am writing to new believers and old believers who received a stern kick in the but, instead of the big feast of bar-b-que lamb, goats, and cows as a welcome present. Believe it or not, I am OK with it, I would not have it any other way, mainly because I did not have much of a choice.
Keep this in your mind and heart ‘you should not commit this sin’ because the cost is too high. You can ask me because I am still paying today, I do not know how long I will be paying, maybe for the rest of my life. The burden is heavy, but I did not complain when I was breaking God and Jesus’s laws, as the old saying goes “You made your bed now sleep in it, but Jesus is with me, and I know I will go to heaven when I die.
In spite of all the things I am going through, believe it or not, I love Jesus and the living conditions I am going through because I know it is in my best interest.
by: Ron S. | Image: Unsplash